Friday, January 02, 2009
Dangling man in January
You know that wistful, lethargic--but at the same time "Gawd! If one more thing goes wrong!" feeling.
Borderline psycho, I suppose.
I guess Alanis Morisette says it best.
"I got one hand in my pocket and the other is hailing a
What pocket is she talking about? For a guy, would that be playing pocket pool?
Hm. Not feeling myself lately. Gave it up for New Year's anyway.
Well, one thing Alanis can do is craft a song. And how she can craft! Almost ancient Greek odes, but extremely modernistic, always unrhymed coming down in lines of three. Calliope from Ottawa. She of the many voices.
Well, one thing I seem to share with my little goddess is an early January sense of unrealiy.
"I'm drunk but I'm sober.
I'm brave but I'm chickenshit
I'm sane but I'm overwhelmed baby."
And then the coda:
"What it all comes down to
Is that everything's gonna be fine fine fine
'cause I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is giving a high five"
I mean to ask her, "Alanis, have you ever been crazy?"
And she'd probably answer, "Yes, many times...But you just walk through it."
Hard to walk though it this January, that god of the two-faced coin. Got one hand in his pocket saying "heads you win and heads you win."
I am schizophrenic, and so am I.
Same as if he were to say "heads you lose and heads you lose?
God of doorways. God of change.
Brings to mind, somehow, a joke heard in Quebec about this two headed guy who answers his phone and promptly offers, "It's for you."
January of the two heads.
Perhaps the most imprtant god in the Roman pantheon, perhaps even more important than Jupiter.
Says the Greek Heraclitus, "The one thing we can always count on is change."
...But for me, the more things change, the more it seems the same.
Or, to get it from the street: "Same shit. Different day."
Ah dangling man.
Got one hand in my pocket and the other on the blue movie.interface.
Heaven forbid if it is of such stuff that blogs can be made of.
But it's January. Do the Robert Frost. In February you will sleep.
Doing the Alanis today in January. Lovely Calliope of the two heads.
From the Alanis to the Pacifis.