Sunday, November 21, 2010
Never write nothin' ugly--But in a nicotine fit, I feel ugly today
I forget which blog comment I picked it up from--probably somebody commenting into Razored Zen, or The Walking Man( some of my favourites)--but over and over again I hear echoes of the late and great writer, Joyce Cary: Your plan no good. God's plan rocks.
This seems echoed by a Russian trapeze artist and tightrope walking lady.
You have the skill. But what actually happens is up to God.
How many times have I burrowed like a mole underneath all obstacles, trying in my own underground way to get where I'm going, only to hit a big boulder, and instead of going around-- going mano a mano, rock versus nose, and, of course, ending up with a frazzled nose...Like a young dog attacking a porcupine head-on, with the inevitalble yelp of "Arrowfff, Fuck!"
Heh. Hate that when it happens.
Old Newfie expression:
If at first you don't succeed--give up. No sense making a fool of yourself.
Now we come to writers, seasoned and new.
If at first we don't succeed, we try again. And again, and again, sometimes a much as seventy times. And what do you know, on the seventy-first time you make it.
But you are by now a different person.
You are now like other professionals who themselves had attacked that rock in their path until they picked up an almost woodpecker technique that through sheer vibration (and a by-now very calloused nose)--actually cracked the rock. Perhaps with a resulting crack in the head. No sissy. Sisipus triumphant at last.
I have met these people in Education. Seventy resumes. Seventy no's.
Finally winning on the seventy-first application.
Myself, I had the smugness of getting in first-time out. Three million words in print trumped any PhD.
It had been my philosophy that in life, you don't take things. They are given to you.
...Until I met the seventy time loser who took my job.
Now, I will have to go your way and take on ant-like qualities.
But army ant.
Because you are unproven.
You forgot god.
No, not me. I am not God. He is.
It's really up to Him.
And you forgot to take God into the equation,